Summer of Darkness
1. Not Ready To Die
You've got a lot of nerve and I've got a lot of fingers to point
While you were busy building knowledge I was already right
I know a voice like yours is not a weapon at all
And even mine is not a chisel for a thickened skull
So you can chant your anthems to the deaf
And we can sit here and cry until there's nothing left
Or we can take our voices with our hands
Make like knives and make demands
We'll take our voices - with our hands
Make like knives - we'll make demands
I'm burning bridges for the last time
I'm breaking habits for the first time
I saw my future today, it said I'm going away
But I still haven't sung the last line
On my way down..
I'm not ready to lay, not ready to fade
I'm not ready to die
And everyday of my life I can feel it getting harder to breathe
With every minute ticking by I'm getting ready to leave
I know a life like mine is not a reason to fret
But I've been busy making scars that you will never forget
If only thirty three years can save my life
I've had twenty three more to make things right
So when I'm taken to the sky and you're still here
You can clear your mind and dry your tears
When I'm taken home - and you're still here
Just clear your mind - dry your tears
I'm burning bridges for the last time
I'm breaking habits for the first time
I saw my future today, it said I'm going away
But I still haven't sung the last line.
On my way down..
I'm not ready to lay, not ready to fade
I'm not ready to die
When I'm taken home - and you're still here
Just clear your mind - dry your tears
We'll take our voices - with our hands
Make like knives - we'll make demands
I'm not ready to lay, not ready to fade
I'm not ready to die
2. Awakening
Fall into the flood of your awakening
Drown. You're a trace of what I used to be
Waging the battle for the appreciation you'll never win
Behold the army that will harken with open souls
A tiny voice of pester softer than a drop of a pin
And so naive thinking you were
The source you told
I was composing the beginning before you had begun
Where did you sharpen such a tongue
For the sound you spill
I want the honor for the favor that I've already won
Without the ignorant deduction
That you reveal
Give me the pain of something real
No empty notion, I want to see the pressure rising
Give in a way that I can feel
When you disagree with me I want to see your eyes burn
Fall into the flood of your awakening
Drown. You're a trace of what I used to be
You wrote the words you couldn't
Stomach manifesting with breath
I read the thoughts you never
Questions would show me your face
If confrontation were to wake and
Rear it's ugly head
I get the feeling you'd be wanting it all erased
This simple gossip is your only definition of life
And what a vacant purpose taking it to your grave
There is no threat of loss in
Hearing the slant you cry
Oh what a fool to think you fell
On the mass you crave
Fall into the flood of your awakening
Drown. You're a trace of what I used to be
Awaken from the delusion of validity
Awaken into the truth of how it used to be
Wake up
Fall into the flood of your awakening
Drown. You're a trace of what I used to be
Awaken
3. Beheaded
In the never-ending circle where
The powerless meet
There grows a struggle from the burden
Of sustaining defeat
In the face of every coward lies the
Blindest of hate
And in the eyes a sharpened image of
The damage they made
You look at me to bear the burden of the suffering past
It wasn't me behind the veil
Of a heartless mask
And where were you the day that everybody
Cursed your name?
You were the distant voice of pride
That never stood the shame.
The weak of the mind will use fist
And the fist of the frail will bring gun
The loudest of guns provoke bombs
And in wrath he will chase until it's done.
[CHORUS:]
Your history is dead.
Dead wrong.
Dead - dead wrong.
Philosophy is dead.
Dead wrong.
Dead - dead wrong.
Within the mind of modern culture
There's an idle cog
It is the section of humanity that never forgot
And in the midst of moving forward we have given the right
To let the wolves attack the sheep and bury guilt inside
I won't forget the twisted picture of the filth that we were
Or disregard the fading voices of the people we hurt
But I was never pulling triggers or degrading your face.
Don't look at me to give the reason for the pain that you trace.
[CHORUS]
The scars outlive the pain.
Reflections will remain.
The scars outlive the pain.
Your sickness will remain.
Dead - dead wrong.
4. My Heartstrings Come Undone
It's buried deep with in the past, I hope it doesn't last
It's something I already chase, I already chase
I try to give it all away, but it's never gonna fade
It's something I don't wanna face, I don't wanna face
I know you feel it's all the same, But I promise that'll change
It's something I already chase, I already chase
You know I'm trying to believe that you're never gonna leave
It's something I don't wanna face, I don't wanna face
There's nothing left! The fear is gone!
When my heartstrings come undone
I will wait for you, I will pray for you
Before I make my final run
I will stay with you, decay with you
I know I'm not the perfect one, This pain has just begun
It's something I already chase, I already chase
You bring me to a better path, It's everything I asked
It's something I don't wanna face, I don't wanna face
There's nothing left! The fear is gone!
There's nothing left! The fear is gone!
And when my heartstrings come undone
I will wait for you, I will pray for you
Before I make my final run
I will stay with you, decay with you
If you fade out without me, you'll know all about me
If you fade out without me, you'll know all...
And when my heartstrings come undone
I will wait for you, I will pray for you
Before I make my final run
I will stay with you, decay with you
And when my heartstrings come undone
I will wait for you, I will pray for you
Before I make my final run
I will stay with you, decay with you
5. Our Faces Fall Apart
Where is the inception of digression in a human life?
When is the answer just a bright light?
Who am I in shamelessly defining all the wrong and right?
What is the difference if we all die?
I am not the first, the last, the absolute
You will find no clarity in me
I am the deceased, the least, the solitude
Failing every face I try to be.
I'm not your progress, the pay of your pains
I'm stabbing the questions for answers I can't face
I'm losing the battle and finding no life to retrace.
I built this anguish with my own hands
I felt the burn inside with my heart.
I built this anguish with my own hands
I watched our faces fall apart.
[CHORUS:]
I felt the tears of all your angels, so cold.
I saw the fall of all your children, I'm so cold.
We are just a fraction of the poison living in this place
How can we answer with a straight face?
Who are you in gauging every standard you
Would have us chase?
Are we alone to run the last race?
We are all the weak, the meek, the innocent
Kissing every fault that we disgrace
We are of the worst, the cursed, the desolate
Leaving every hope that we embrace.
[CHORUS]
You turn your eyes to me in hope of my decline
Pointing your blame as I faltered on that line
We saw your slander when you pulled it off the shelf
If you want justice you'll point it at yourself
Face your fears. Trace your tears.
Kill the blind assumption that you know how I react inside
I am not so hollow, you can't see what grows inside my mind
Straight-faced, straight-faced.
6. Less Than Nothing
I suffocate.
Reality is tearing my life away.
All in vain.
I'm taking my pride into the grave.
What a fine line we walk with our eyes closed.
Giving our worst as first like we don't know.
Burning my way through life with a vengeance
Giving my weight in hate until the neck bends
Tearing out every trace of emotion
Falling into this cell that you've opened
Hollow as all these faces around me
Feeling your fatal infection surround me.
[CHORUS:]
We all live in fear of something.
We all disappear like nothing.
We all live in fear of something.
We all equal less than nothing.
I suffocate.
I'm taking my life from first to last.
All this hate is dragging my face through broken glass.
How can we be so blind in the same light?
Covering all these scars that we can't hide.
Feeling my way through thorns of rejection.
Bleeding out all this filth of infection.
[CHORUS]
Nothing.
Nothing.
We're nothing.
Nothing.
7. Summer Of Darkness
I'll be the one last breath before this death
I'll be the final glimpse of truth when there's none left
And if I shame your face, degrade your faith
I'll be the first to hide behind disgrace.
Blood loss on account of my failing aim.
Treason - at the root of my shameful name.
I found my way to fall.
I never meant to break your heart.
[CHORUS:]
Breathing in this pain (rejecting all I am)
I hear you cry again (Is this my final stand?)
8. Beauty Through The Eyes Of A Predator
I'm not the only one who can't see why it crossed your mind
I see your life and death reduce into a product line
It's not enough to see you speaking through the blindest of eyes
The same dead, cold breath is reducing mine
I can't see why
You're not a saint, you're a thief
You can't deny
It's all a ploy underneath.
All I've seen (you better learn to keep your face under the dark)
All I need (wake up and feel the blood escape your heart)
Your disease (for every word that you devalue and mistake)
I can't breathe (for every soul you nauseate with what you say)
[CHORUS:]
You've brought this verdict on yourself (before we ever had a chance)
I hope you cry for the one's you've lost.
You built this burden when you fell (you know we never took a glance)
I hope it's worth all the blood it cost.
It's been a long way back from the dissipated path
Only half way through, say goodbye and take a breath
And when the end shines new with the burn of nothing left
I'll give you one last chance to say you're done and give it back.
I won't agree.
Your remedy is a joke.
I can't believe.
That you can breathe and not choke.
[CHORUS]
Peddle your faith to the blind.
And cheapen the love that you feel so painful.
Pushing the guilt through yourself.
And suffer the mold of a prime example.
[CHORUS]
I feel my lungs beginning to burn.
With every foolish word that you spit, another nail you'll get.
9. Annihilate The Corrupt
Behind the eyes of my compassion lies a suffering soul
And in my blood a bitter darkness slowly taking it's toll
I feel the death of our connection and the fading of light
Between the shards of sudden panic from choking on my life
I see the scars of your addiction and the feeling you hide
A blackened heart from all the hatred you will never rewind
Within the depths of your depression hear you pleading for help
Your just a shell of vacant ruin, a portrait of myself.
I can't breathe alone
You can guide me home.
[CHORUS:]
I am the face of your affliction.
Feeding new life through the cracks in your skull.
Beneath the skin of your aggression is a thickening fear
A swelling plague from every devastating voice that you hear
You feel the throes of contradiction in the world that you left
Another day in your delusion, the never-ending death.
I can't breathe alone
You can guide me home
I can feel you here
You can draw me near
[CHORUS:]
I am the face of your afflication.
Feeding new life through the cracks in your skull.
I am the pain of your conviction
Stabbing you right through the back of your soul.
This is life, this is love
[CHORUS]
I can feel you here
You can draw me near.
10. I Play Dead
Play dead again. It just might stop before the end.
If I pretend you may not see the pain I'm in.
So close to me, can't tell what I'm supposed to be.
Don't stop to breathe, can't bear to think what you might see.
This tourniquet, these blessed hands around my head
So I can keep from...
Bleeding.
I've got to find a way to stop before it starts.
Finding its way through my veins right to my heart.
I never thought it something everyone could see.
And it kills within me.
[CHORUS:]
I won't, I won't leave without a trace.
I won't be erased.
It's in my head, I can't forget what you once said.
The words I read, the fractured soul that I can't mend.
Right here with me, killing the void I used to be.
Remembering through fading sparks of memory.
Two broken hands lift seven wounds and fight to stand
To keep the lungs from..
Caving.
I've got to find a way to stop before it starts.
Finding its way through my veins right to my heart.
I never thought it something everyone could see.
And it kills within me.
[CHORUS]
Turning. It's moving. Escaping right through me.
I care not. I bleed not. For you I believe not.
I play dead.
11. Everything Was White
As I clear my mind enough to see
Decaying pieces of my being that have fallen on me
I find the one clean cut that has given the wrath
Beneath the deep and cleansing fire that is shaping the path
I've had all my life to fall in place
I watch all my past in right decay
And with every step that shames my face
I see all my pieces catch ablaze
[CHORUS:]
The pain is fading, now you're leaving me alone.
I can't stop bleeding, I'm depleting on my own
I can't bury every form I've seen
The hollow pieces of perfection are embedded in me
And with every step the walls give way
And in the shadow of deceit I can see you fade
I've seen all those dreams we try to hide
And the sound of honesty's reply
But I'm not that man you've seen inside
He was born so pure but then he died
[CHORUS]
With every word I breathe out
I feel it escaping from my soul
With every thought created
Omission leaving me so cold
I've seen inside the downward fall
Remember all the filth I saw
I've seen inside the downward fall
Remember everything I saw
[CHORUS]
12. Coffin Builder
My fall draws near.
My life fell out of my hands and into
This hole where everything's cold
I lose the feeling of guilt. There's
nothing inside, my innocence died.
And now the emptiness grows, it's
bringing me down and taking my crown
I've seen where everything's dark.
It's here in my soul, I'm losing control.
[CHORUS:]
Have mercy on me.
Have mercy on me.
Have mercy on me for every thorn I've driven in.
Within these walls you'll see
Alone in here - the end.
Before my very last day I'm making it stop.
I'm turning it off.
I'll fight the feeling I have until everything's
Gone. Resistance has won
Now time is healing these wounds and
You are still here releasing my fear
My life fell out of my hands. They
took it away, I'm taking it back.
[CHORUS]
And everyday I feel like this weight's
Constantly dragging me down
Broken for the last time (Never get the best of me, won't get the best of me)
I've got a heart of steel, but your words are
Constantly bringing me down.
I'm open for the first time (Never get the best of me, wont' get the best of me)
[CHORUS]
My fall drawns near.
13. Latest And The Last
Words of high cost (you spit a curse at my name)
When thoughts of hate cross (I can't devour your blame)
This is your choice (this is your hammer to crush)
I have no voice (you're not the hand that I trust)
Throw it down on me.
Throw it down on me.
[CHORUS:]
Before you break your silence, before we tear this open...
We'll count the dead and hopeless for every word unspoken.
Thoughts, like blood, run (forever staining our hands)
Mouth like cold gun (before the barrel we stand)
The latest and the last (you put a price on my head)
The latest and the last (the worst is already said)
[CHORUS]
Spilling through your teeth
You're sick of what you've seen
You point your guilt at every step we took in loyalty
[CHORUS]
Throw it down on me.
Throw it down.
