ALTZONE - Unloco - Becoming I 2003

1 Becoming I

A someone wounds my face

It's hard to take in

I'm no overwhelming grace

But the way that I live

So close to you

I feel so ashame

It's marse being new

'Cauz I'm falling again

The stink smell so real

Like I been here before

Emotions we'll kill

Then life I always knew

Because on their lives

The world seems to change

But since you're alive

I feel no more pain

Chorus:

'Cauz I have become

The one thing I hate

'Cauz I have become

The smile on your face

There's no need to say

The need I made

'Cauz I have become

The one thing I hate

You wanted things

That breathen my skin

I've failed all the voids

Which I live in

Hadn't every time you belled

I feel so alive

Then you wait to count

The many times I die

Chorus

So close to you x4

Chorus

The one thing I hate x3

No, the one thing I hate

No, no, the one thing I hate x2

No, no, no the one thing I hate x4

2 bruises

Please leave me alone

For I cannot let this go

It's the lie that I live

Everything that I give

Shut the fuck up

Please tell me that I have grown

For I have bruises left to show

And I fall in between everything

Let me see

Come on get up

Let me see your bruises

'Cause I will never let you know

'Cause I will never let you go

Please leave me alone

Let me see, let me see, let me see

Come on get up

Let me see your bruises

3 Clean

Use me as much as you can

Cuz you’ve never been

More than a friend

Cuz I try to push you away

And make myself clean

And forget you hurt me

CLEAN

I don't want to be

I don’t need to be

I don't want to be

CLEAN

I don't want to be

I don’t need to be

I don’t want to be

Pressure, the less that I feel

The more that I heal

And put back the pieces

Cuz you keep taking my soul

Keep from letting it go

And setting me free

You keep bringing me down

Keep my head above ground

The ground that I lay

Cuz I try myself every day

And say it's o.k.

For bringing me pain...

CLEAN

I don't want to be

I don’t need to be

I don't want to be

CLEAN

I don’t want to be

I don’t need to be

I don't want to be

And when I step outside this place

All I see is empty

And When I look into your face

All I see is emptiness

CLEAN

I don't want to be

I don’t need to be

I don't want to be

CLEAN

I don't want to be

I don’t need to be

I don't want to be

4 crashing

Every time that I bleed

It's my affection

And every time I come clean

It's my humiliation

And everything, that I say

I say to save myself

And everything, that I say

Makes my world come crashing down

Chorus:

Everytime you're near me

I feel like crashing down

Everytime you're near me

I feel I'm crashing

Eveytime, that I breathe

Is to keep you alive

And everytime, that I see

Is to watch you say goodbye

No more words inside my head

To save my ass this time

No more words inside my head

When it all comes crashing down

Chorus x2

Everytime I breathe

I breathe for you

And everytime I leave

I leave for you

And everytime I see

I see for you

And everything I do

Has been for you

Everytime I breathe

I breathe for you

And everytime I see

I see for you

And everything I do

I do for you

And everything makes it come down

Chorus x2

I feel like crashing down x4

I feel like crashing

5 Drowning in it

Why are we here I always seem to ask myself

Question awerted by the thought of someone else

And I'm hopelessly done with the things that I have tried to do

Should I give up and let the way just fall on me

Day by day I struggle endlessly

There's nothing right

There's nothing good about this

There's nothing right

There's nothing great about this life

And I will never know

How it's supposed to be

I keep fighting with the visions inside head

I used to feel so much better than today

I should be laughing but instead I'm just a mess

It's not right, it's not right to feel this way

I keep fighting with the visions inside head

I turn how much I could take a things

And now I feel I'm so drowning in it

It's not right, it's not right to feel this way

So you're gone what are we supposed to do

I told myself not to care a true and true

And all this times seems so wasted

When end in end and it was all for nothing

There's nothing right

'Cauz I'm in a fake madnessy

There's nothing right

'Cauz I'm in a fake misery

There's nothing right

There's nothing good about this

There's nothing right

There's nothing great about this life

And you will always be

Another fake part of me

Chorus

Why do I always feel this way

And why do I always feel this way x2

And why do x4

Chorus

I keep hiding but drowning in it

And I keep hiding but drowning in it x2

And I keep, and I keep drowning in it x2

6 empty

i look outside and see that everything is perfect

except for me, i'll always be the one who sits and stares

and now and then your just my friend

someone i could talk to

and it's killing me

yes it's killing me

and i...i feel so empty inside

cuz i'm a freak in your eyes

i feel so empty inside

and it's killing me

i look outside and realize how much i'm different

you'll never see inside of me, inside just who i am

and now and then you're just my friend

someone i could talk to

and it's killing me

it's just killing me

and i...i feel so empty inside

cuz i'm a freak in your eyes

i feel so empty inside

and it's killing me

i'm outside but i'm looking in

i look into your eyes and see that you are perfect

except for me, except for me

and i...i feel so empty inside

cuz i'm a freak in your eyes

i feel so empty inside

i feel so, i feel so

i...i feel so empty inside

i feel so empty inside

i feel so empty inside

i feel so empty inside

7 face down

I sign at the world

Because you don't seem to care

and if i grow old

Then you were never there

And yet it's hard just to find

the only way back inside

The only way I could let this go

And how i could justify

by taking what is deep inside

And lie face down

And lie face down

And if i could

Then you were so over this

And then we face it's soul

I'm face down but no one knows (x2)

And if i Bleed

The i will bleed for you

and it's hard to see

to see what i see in you

An I just realized

that everything that i fear

is back in my face only again

So put me out on this floor

cuz that's the way i've been

Since i lied down

since i LIED down

And if i could

Then you were so over this

And then we face it's soul

I'm face down and no one knows (x2)

I feel it's the same thing I've had

Since i fell here, I fear

I sign at the world

Because you don't care

and if i grow old

Then you will never come back!!!!!

I'm face down and no one knows (x2)

I feel it's the same thing I've had

Since i fell here, I fear I'M FACE DOWN AND NO ONE KNOWS!!!

8 failure

Maybe I...

I didn't seem to have a thing left to say

I bottled it far away

And maybe I...

I tryed too hard to find someone to blame

Or maybe it's me who changed

And now I'm left with nothing...

Again

So what if I lost everything?

Would you want me if I was a failure?

So what if I lost everything?

Would you be there even when I am gone?

Baby, I...

I didn't seem to give everything away

Not because I needed you to stay

and I...

I couldn't face the fears I've lived for being hung

I've tryed to answer every question

To why I'm left with nothing...

Again

So what if I lost everything?

Would you want me if I was a failure?

So what if I lost everything?

Would you be there even if I was gone?

Maybe you could've taken all the pain inside of me

And now I feel like this was all for nothing

Cause I'm left with nothing

I'm left with nothing...

Again

So what if I lost everything?

Would you want me if I was a failure?

So what if I lost everything?

Would you want me if I was a failure?

So what if I lost everything?

Would you be there even when I am gone?

So what if I lost everything?

Would you want me if I...

If I...was a failure

9 far side

I try not to hate you

Not to hate me

But it just won't go away

I see all I can see

I'm hoping for a brighter day

Watch as you go

Watch as I wave goodbye

There's no one to know me

on the far........side

I don't care about your side

You don't care about your life

I don't care about you

I try not to feel the same

Not to feel this way

A front disguise

And I see all I can see

I'm hoping for a new life

Watch as you go

Watch as I wave goodbye

There's no one to know me

on the far........side

I don't care about your side

You don't care about your life

I don't care about you

and when it's gone

I won't be there

All these things as they pass

I'll just fade away

and the time can tell me that

we're all the same

I try not to hate you

Not try to hate me

But it just won't go away

I see all I can see

I'm hoping for a brighter day

Watch as you go

Watch as I wave goodbye

There's no one to know me

on the far........side

I don't care about your side

You don't care about your life

I don't care about you

10 fold

I feel like I don't exist

I'm trying too hard to cope with this

Cuz if it means too much

Then it means too much to me

I'm pulling your strings

But you're pulling away

Its half-past noon

Another fucking bad day

Cuz I'm screaming

At the top of my lungs

If I don't get my way

(You better watch your back)

It's all the same to me

I feel so incomplete

I never want to change,

But I think I'm gonna fold

It's all the same to me

I wanna let you know

Maybe I just don't wanna let you go

Cuz if it means that much

Then it means that much to me

I got a new job but my pocket is broke

I want a revolution but I just can't revolt

And there's gotta be something out there

That makes me feel this way

(You better watch your back)

It's all the same to me

I feel so incomplete

I never want to change,

But I think I'm gonna fold

It's all the same to me

I feel I'm gonna fold

11 hands and knees

You see me walking away

What more could I say than sorry

I failed by all your complaints

You pushed a life change but it's not me

And filthy hands lay upon my chest

Lay upon my sin, but I do it for green

And in your mind you are blind

And your back turn so fine

Where were you when I needed you most

So mother so father

I'm on my hands and knees

So mother so father

I'm scrounging for what's left of me

My self-indulgence to blame

For all of the shame in the family

You don't know what it's like

How I feel how I cry

How I hate the way I hate my life

So mother so father

I'm on my hands and knees

So mother so father

I'm scrounging for what's left of me

Pues madre, y padre

esta vida no quiero vivir

So mother so father

I'm on my hands and knees

So mother so father

I'm scrounging for what's left of me

So mother so father

I'm on my hands and knees

So mother so father

I'm scrounging for what's left of me

12 less of

Less of I but more than you

I'm less of nothing again

I take my life and what I do

I feel I'm the last to be saved

What would you say

That everything here

must soon change

But you think the machine

is a man in the back of my head

All the lies, the lies can be the truth

if you just want them to be

But you'll still push me down

You just

GET BACK

Doesn't matter what I say

or how I feel

You're out of line

So just get back, get back

Let, You just can't

Let, you just can't

Let, you just can't

LET IT GO, LET IT GO

And if I see his face

And I do nothing for this

Would you think less of me

If I didn't raise my fist

All the cracks in the floor

Make this life a game

for you to push me down

For you to

GET BACK

Doesn't matter what I say

or how I feel

You're out of line

So just get back, get back

Let, You just can't

Let, You just can't

Let, you just can't

LET IT GO, LET IT GO

Try to understand

LET IT GO

Doesn't matter what I say

or how I feel

You're out of line

So just get back, get back

LET IT GO

Doesn't matter what I say

or how I feel

You're out of line

So just get back, get back

Let, You just can't

Let, You just can't

Let, You just can't

LET IT GO, LET IT GO

13 make me hate you

can't simplify

all the the things that burn inside

but when you ask i'm fine

but i'm lieing all the time

so its tough to say when you laugh at me this way

but in my mind i'm crying i'm crying all the time so

so pick up the vibe

make me wanna justify

every word thats comeing out your mouth

no looking back

you better chose a side

i'm shakeing within

you fake you lied

your makeing me hate you

you fake you lied

your makeing me want to even more

can't see any good side of you

but i'm trying i'm trying to

i can't explain all the damage you can bring

but when i'm fine i'm dieing i'm dieing all the time so

so pick up the vibe

make me wanna justify

every word thats comeing out your mouth

no looking back

all i wanna see

is that your shakeing with fear

you fake you lied

your makeing me hate you

you fake you lied

your makeing me want to even more

you fake you lied

your makeing me hate you

you fake you lied

your makeing me want to even more

cause i will always be

torn by what i see

cause i will always be

the same even though i stopped thinking of you

can't simplify

all the the things that burn inside

but when i try i'm trying i'm trying all the time

you fake you lied

your makeing me hate you

you fake you lied

?your makeing me want to even more

you fake you lied

your makeing me hate you

you fake you lied

14 neurotic

'Cause it goes just like you

And it breaks just like me

And it lies just like them

And these walls are protecting me

And so the story goes

Stripped down its the same

And so the story goes

You're gonna break every night

You're gonna break every night

You'll be coming next to me

'Cause it breaks just like you

And it fades just like me

And it steals just like them

It's neverending

It's neverending for me

And so the story goes

Stripped down its the same

And so the story goes

You're gonna break every night

You're gonna break every night

You'll be coming next to me

I put my blinding faith in you

My philosophy says I should

And so the story goes

Stripped down its the same

And so the story goes

You're gonna break every night

I'm gonna break every night

You'll be coming next to me

15 no one

look back inside

will i ever relize

that this day, this man

was me?

but then i suffocate

everything that i relate

it's not the same

life that we knew it

i bleed my life

i shed my skin

i'm dying deep within

cause everything's my fault

but then i suffocate

everything that i relate

it's all your life

that we knew it

yeah i'm finding out that your nothing better

yeah i'm finding out that you just don't care

left outside, left to dry

so know all the reasons

why everything's my fault

but then i suffocate

everything that i relate

it's not the same

life that we knew it

yeah i'm finding out that your nothing better

yeah i'm finding out that you just don't...

i can find out that you are nothing better

and i can find out that you just don't seem to care

not here, not here, not here it's all

you give no chance, it's all from me

IT'S ALL I GOT!

yeah i'm finding out that your nothing better

yeah i'm finding out that you just don't care

(x2)

16 nothing

've got nothing left for you to take away

I know ya blame me for everytime you walked away

So what ya hate me and everything I seem to do

So look back don't turn away

It was my face that you were lying to

And in my life you can find everything ya separate

And in my life you can find everything ya wanna take away

I got nothin

I got nothin

I got nothin

I got nothin

I got nothin

I got nothin

So what its not the same every word out your mouth is shit

So look back dont turn away

I'm sick, I'm through, and I'm fed up with this

And in my life you can find everything ya separate

And in my life you can find evrything you wanna take away

I got nothin

I got nothin

I got nothin

I got nothin

I got nothin

I got nothin

You saw the door as everything ya separate

I know

I know

You give what you take away

So what you hate me and everything I seem to do

I know ya blame me for everytime I walk out on you

I've got nothing

I got nothin

I got nothin

I got nothin

I got nothin

I got nothin

I got nothin

16 texas

sometimes I lie awake in bed

thinking about the things you said

so lost for words

so lost to tell you how I feel

so terrified of changing what I thought was real

it's too bad

you're gone

it's too bad

you're not alone

and I know that

you couldn't see that it's just too bad

that you're gone and not here with me

standing here, trying to make some sense of this

there's nothing between us, still I can feel your ackwardness

so lost for words

so you just tell me i'm your friend

there must be one reason

only one reason in the end

`cause it's

it's too bad

you're gone

it's too bad

you're not alone

and I know that

you couldn't see that it's just too bad

that you're gone and not here with me

so why are you pulling away?

and it must be from things that I say

and I'm thinking of thinking again

so why do I even care at all?

17 useless

Waiting in my room

I'm lying on the bed

Cuz outside is just too cold

I turned the radio loud

So I can fall asleep

But it's all I've come to know

Push me and you

Shoved like you always do

But nothing's ever the same

But how can I explain

The damage you have done

When all that's left is pain

So I tried to stay awake

And so I would try and stay awake

And so I learn....

I Fucking tried your way

And I don't like what I see

Cuz I've been put to the test

And faced all the rest

And useless is all I'll be

So I tried your way

And don't like what I see

And now I'm bored...

Waiting in my room

I'm lying on the floor

Cuz outside i just don't know

I turned the radio loud

So i can hear me think

But it's all I've come to know

So I tried to stay awake

And so I would try to stay awake

And so I learn...

I fucking tried your way

And I don't like what I see

I've been put to the test

And faced all the rest

And useless is all I'll be

So I tried your way

And I don't like what I see

And now I'm bored...

(So I burn a part of me that slowly fades to you, but

how can I plainly see what slowly fades to me)

18 watching me slip

so I sit here alone trying to find my own

way to cope with everything that I've done wrong

so I try real hard not to see what you've done to me

but I couldn't find my heart

and there won't be any silence till its gone

there won't be any silence till i'm

look away your watching me

as I slip away

casue everything I know just falls apart

now its me as I slip away

cause everything I know just falls apart

so I try real hard not to see what you've done to me

but I couldn't find a way

and i'll sit here

my own way to cope with everything

that i've done wrong

and there won't be any silence till its gone

there won't be any silence till i'm

look away your watching me

as I slip away

cause everything I know just falls apart

now its me as I slip away

cause everything I know just falls a-it just, it just falls apart

and its cause i'm not enough to bring down

i'm not enough to bring you down

i'm not enough to make you happy

i'm not enough to make you stay

19 whimper

Closer, more than you feel

Another piece of me lashes out

When I'm losing all control

Then I see your ways

And everything that never changed

It's still in you

It's still in you

It's all this hate

I don't want this

And pain

I don't need this

And hate

I don't want this

It's not the same

Whimper with me

Too much like a bad dream

Another memory lashes out

And I'm losing all control

But then I seem to fake

Everything that once was great

Is still in me

It's all this hate

I don't want this

And pain

I don't need this

And hate

I don't want this

It's not the same

Whimper with me

So step off the line

I can see it in your face

How reality breaks

Like the fuckers with the drive-by

It's all the same thing

Everything is going to fade

Pretend to try

That you wanna be like me

If all the faces looking down

means you got none

When you think you solve

a problem you create one

So look in to find look in to find

and hate yourself

Look deep inside... yourself

Look in to find

It's all this hate

I don't want this

And pain

I don't need this

And hate

I don't want this

It's not the same

Whimper with me